Hi Buck!

I have to admit that you seem to be a very cool guy. Would love to take a beer or two with you really. I just watched your interview (The netherland-one on Jensen Show), and you seem to be a very humorous and cool person. I did really have some kind of prejudice towards you when I first heard about you, and these all kinds of questions arised in me: “Why? Who is “THAT”? What was the reason? What does IT sound like?” and so forward. I didn’t seem to look at you like a normal person, but as some kind of object, thinking of you as “IT” like some Frankestein monster. And I admit I was totally wrong. It is hard to admit stuff like that as an adult man, but I still did it.

You have affected my view about world quite much; There are different people, and different persons. You are just one among us, and I consider you as “Cool guy”. Prejudice is always bad, and you have proved my perjudicions once again wrong. You are a cool person, open-minded and as Jensen said, HAPPY PERSON!

Good luck be with you with everything you do. I am not myself into porn-industry itself, nor porn, but I appreciate what you do! For example you said in Jensen show; “70 000 dollars is a lot of money!”, it’s not what you usually hear from rich person! I mean man, you are cool. Keep it, keep it living, you are one of the people affecting our current culture, even in “underground-scene”, that porn still is to some people.

With apprecation,
- W. from Finland

Dear Mr.Angel,
I am sorry to bother you as I am sure you are a busy man. My name is TJ, and you do not know me, but you are changing my life. I am a 30 year old female, and like you, I feel cursed. I was raised but a overbearing mother who taught me self hate from a VERY early age. I was conditioned to feel dirty, sick, and ashamed of who I was (and am). As a result I have spent my entire life in hell.
I never felt like a woman even from early childhood. As a kid I would dream of the day that I would grow into the MAN I saw myself to be. I didn’t even really realize I was a female until I was about 7 when I was beaten up at school for being “queer.” I would pretend to shave my face like my stepfather. I wanted to be myself so badly that even my earliest memories are filled with dreams of “growing into” my penis, and often would wake up to cry myself back to sleep when I realized it was, in fact, a dream.
The “values” forced opon me were so filled with hate and intolerance that even being “lesbian” has caused a Lifetime of emotional abuse. So instilled in me was this that I am still considered an outcast in my mothers mind.
The concept of reassignment was not an option I felt I had, although always a secret dream. From what I was taught and the little information I was given, I thought I would never be happy, and hope(ed) for death daily, Because I know I will be a the man I am in the next life.
I have been with the same beautiful woman, Jenn, for 7 years now. It is because of her love and support that i am able to finally have hope. She had called me her “husband” for years, she has allowed me to be as true to yself as I can. She even has taken to calling me “Trent” as we BOTH feel it is my name. She has expressed her acceptance and support of and for me since day-one but I felt I couldnt truely accept myself.
I thougt the reassignment surgery(at least FtM )was crude at best. The men that I had seen always looked wrong, never masculine, never truely the MEN they wanted and needed to be. Until My wife and I were goofing around on the internet and “as a joke” I googled “female to male sex change”. It was this fateful act that has led me to you.
I wanted to cry when I saw how happy and “real” you are. You have become my DREAM. I don’t know where to begin expressing my pride and support for you. You litterally are changing my life as I even type now. You have shown me, not only that the surgery has come a long way in the last 10 or so years, but that it can truely make someone as “cursed” as I have been, able to feel blessed.
This letter is my personal First Step. My wife and I have had many,(many, many….) conversations on the matter. I freely admit to being afraid, and uneasy about the repercussions this will bring, especially within my family and friends. I am almost cirtain that they will (all) either abandon me or dispise me. However, I finally can say that I no longer feel I have to please the unpleasable. Their reaction is beyond my control.
I am ignorant about how to start this, as well as unsure how Im going to raise the funding for such a long and difficult procidure (I am a cab driver by profession). I have a few “adult toy” consepts and ideas and my hope is that I will be able to sell these ideas and make enough money to climb out of the hell I have endured for 30 years.
Please Mr. Angel, any advice you could offer would be most appreciated, as well as information on how and where to start. Like you I want to see MYSELF when I look in the mirror so recomendations for doctors as well as web sites would also be immensly helpful.
No matter the cost, (be it financial, emotional, or physical) I WILL find a way. I WILL be the man I know I am. I have you to thank for this hope, determination, and strength. Both yourself and my wife are honestly my heroes, I owe you both my life and sanity. You are the definition of “Angel.” From the core of my being, I thank you.
Sincerly,
TJ “Trent” Strong
P.S. Your work in the film industry is amazing! I have been a supporter and fan of the adult genre (film, toys, literature, etc.) as long as I can remember, and you work is some of the best I have seen.

Hi Buck,
I’m a 35 year-old mom from Canton, Massachusetts (just outside of Boston).  I have never seen any of your films, and have just heard your name for the first time within this past week.  Basically, I just saw the documentary that you did here in the States on your career, and was completely blown away.  You are one incredibly hot dude, and I am awed at what you have overcome to be who and where you are in your life right now.
I’ve spent some time over the last few days (since I saw the “Secret Lives of Women” documentary) reading about you and watching a lot of your interviews on YouTube.  I’m sending this email because I know that it’s been tougher for you to find acceptance here in the USA, and I felt compelled to raise my voice and tell you that THIS American really admires you, thinks you’re gorgeous (physically and spiritually), and wants to let you know that I think what you’re doing is truly fantastic.
I’ve also been inspired by you and have recently started a dialogue with my three-year-old daughter about children who are born different.  (More accurately, I’ve expanded our ongoing dialogue about not judging someone because of things like different skin color/racial makeup, handicaps, etc. to include transgender issues.)  Being “born different” is a subject she can relate to, because she was born with her esophagus disconnected in the middle (a condition called tracheal esophageal fistula with esophageal atresia … or TEF/EA for short).  The top half of her esophagus basically dead-ended a short way down, and the lower half was connected to her windpipe.  Eating was impossible for her, and every time she took a breath, her stomach would fill with air.  She required a life-saving reconstructive surgery when she was a day old to make it physically possible for her to eat.  She’s had multiple follow-up procedures to address complications from the initial surgery.  Because of this, she is fully aware of the fact (even at her young age) that you can’t help the way that you’re born, and she’s sensitive to the fact that it can be really hard when your body doesn’t grow the way it should have.  After our discussion today, she decided that if she ever makes friends with a transgendered child, she’s going to “yell at” anyone who tries to make fun of them or teases them!!!
That being said …
I wish there was a way to reach out to local parents of transgendered children in my daughter’s age group (who often fear anyone finding out the truth about their child’s gender identity issues) and let them know that there is a family here where all the members would accept their child for who he or she is, without judgment or question.  Rather than be put off by the thought of my child having a transgendered playmate, I would welcome the opportunity for her to continue learning acceptance of other’s differences at as early an age as possible.
In general, I’m proud of the fact that there is a slowly growing awareness about the transgendered community (particularly children) in my neck of the woods.  I’m sure you already know this, but Boston’s Children’s Hospital recently opened the Gender Management Service Clinic — partially to help transgendered children.  I understand that it’s the first clinic of its kind that is geared strictly towards servicing children and adolescents.
I’d love to get your opinion on whether or not you think it would be too forward of me to reach out to some of the parents there??  I would hate to think that there is a kid out there with no friends who accept them when my daughter would with open arms.
I’m sure you get tons of mail, and I don’t really expect a response, but … considering that I don’t personally know anyone who is transgendered, I would rather get the opinion of someone who has been there before making any attempt to reach out to families of transgendered kids.  I don’t want to put anyone off, or weird them out.  I’m just aware of how hard it must be for kids who often live in fear of being “exposed” to their playmates, and would like to offer some of them a place where they could be safe and accepted.
Meanwhile, I really did want to reach out and let you know how truly incredible you are.  I’d love to actually get a chance to see some of your movies someday (right now, I can’t even rent one, since I’ve been laid off for almost a year, and I’m flat broke!), even though it’s going to really weird out my straighter-than-straight boyfriend.  (He’s a trip … he has nothing against anyone who is GBLT, but he’s one of those guys who is so straight that they make a ruler look crooked.)  Meanwhile … I’m so happy that I’ve learned about you!!  Keep up the good work!!!
By the way … the phrase “man pussy” is completely fucking awesome!!!
Peace,

(PS.  I guess if you pigeonholed me, I’d say I’m 85% heterosexual … mostly straight, but with a few kinks in the chain [*grin*].  In essence, I’m more attracted to men than women, but I’ve certainly found my fair share of women sexually attractive.  Regardless of the fact that I’m generally attracted more to men, I’ve never felt uncomfortable with my occasional attraction/sexual exploits with other women.  [So you, being the "man with the pussy" are seriously intriguing to me ... LOL!!!]  In general, I’ve always viewed sexuality as a sort of sliding scale, where everyone has their niche along the way.  I hate the thought of anyone slapping a label on me about my sexuality, which I’m sure is a sentiment that you might relate to.  I’m not straight, or lesbian, or bisexual, I’m just ME, and I’m just sexual, period.)

I saw him on the Women’s Entertainment show (“The Secret Lives of Women”) and I must say, as a normal, but sexual explorer, I am female yet for some reason I think it is an absolute turn on! I’m attracted to both men and women and Buck Angel has it all! So keep up the good work! Never seen a movie of his but I think I would enjoy! Much love!
Xoxo,
Kristine